Another full moon is upon us, and typically that means chaos, frenzy, madness, and (my favorite) release. *deep breath* Let's just jump right in, shall we?
This is the final full moon of 2016. 2016, in numerology, is a 9 year. 9 is the number associated with finality, endings, and tying up loose ends. Being the final releasing time of a year of endings, things are getting a bit heavy. *another deep breath* That is not necessarily a bad thing. Let's take a big note of that. All change isn't bad. Some things just need to go from our lives. If we aren't actively making these changes and releasing that which no longer serves us, the Universe is doing one heck of a job doing it.
I've noticed myself going through closets and drawers, with a need to get rid of 'stuff' just sitting there not being used and organize that which is. With the energy of madness swirling around me (full moon, holiday season, etc.), organizing my things gives me a sense of control amongst the chaos. (It's a false sense of control, but it helps)
Physically, we may be dealing with natural forms of release from our bodies due to the full moon. Some of these symptoms may be: hot flashes/sweating, coughing up mucus, runny noses, crying, yelling/arguing (this is our throat chakras releasing things we've been holding in, and is also stirring up right now with Mercury Retrograde a few days away), frequent urination, larger/more frequent bowel movements, and a need to clean/clear away clutter from our immediate surroundings.
On a larger level, some of us are noticing patterns and situations in our lives coming to a head. If we haven't dealt with a lesson, it repeats itself until we learn. I'll share a pattern happening in my life that came to a dramatic head this week. It feels important. For me. For you. For life.
In my previous life (20 years ago), I was a hot-headed, fiery-tempered mofo that you did NOT want to cross. That girl still exists inside of me, but I've learned much nicer (more responsible) ways to conduct myself. In the past, if someone was attacking toward me, treated me in a shitty manner, or wronged me... well, let's just say that I made sure they got what (I thought) they deserved, which usually came in a verbal lashing of some sort. Today, I feel that I'm more centered and someone else's shittiness toward me doesn't warrant a verbal lashing, because they don't deserve my energy - good or bad.
Within the past 3 years, I've noticed a pattern of people misdirecting anger and frustration toward me. Along with my (mostly) calm, reasonable responses. (Who is this girl?!) And as this pattern has increased, so has my frustration for the situations and people in them. BUT, I am aware that this is a pattern trying to teach me something. So, I've tried to keep myself open to learning. I don't know that I fully understand the lesson just yet, but I have realized a common thread amongst each situation. The people involved have lashed out at me, as a way to avoid facing their own true feelings. Am I meant to be the mirror for them to own their own shit? Am I meant to learn how to feel attacked without attacking back? As I continue to ponder the possible lesson involved in this, I watch with amazement at how oblivious people are to their own feelings and the obvious truth that stares them in the face as they look away. And it's OK to not be there yet - ready to own your own shit. I was once there. I get it. It's SO much easier to point fingers at others than to take responsibility for yourself. But, I've never been one to take the easy road. So, I'll continue my travels, remaining a work in progress, continuously striving for more knowledge (especially of myself). This road may be bumpy and difficult at times, but at least I know I'm the one that brought myself here.
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